Talkin' with myself.

"Turn around. Turn around. Turn around. TURN FUCKIN' AROUND."

"Shut the fuck up"

I'm not going to turn around just because my hart says so. I'm not going to lose everything again. No. Not this time. My hart is a stupid one, because my hart really believe everything, but my brain, is still awake, and is doing the right thing.

"Move your ass back home!", yeah this is what I'm going to do. I don't need to turn around, I don't need you, but I need a cold shower, because I need to wake up.

I know that this life doesn't come with instructions, but I'm going to do my own.

No I don't want to go home. No. I'm too frickin'  depressed. Crap. But I have to do it. Shit.

Now I'm going to put my trust in you 2. Yeah. I hope that this will last long.
Let them talk. Let them talk. Let them talk.
Let them walk. Let them walk. Let them walk. 

Bleah. Here is fuckin' cold. Why?

I grab my phone. What the hell I'm going to do now.

I'm texting a name. Why I did that? Why I just texted that name? Ahhh. Too much questions.

Should I call? No. Should I delete this? YEAH!

"Do you want to delete this?".

I know that two seconds ago, I said "yes", but now...

Yeah. I press "yes". This is what you should have done a long time ago.

I'm smiling. Hmmm, maybe this is the best way. Surely.

On day before yesterday was my fuckin' birthday!

On 9th, was my birthday.

I get older, and beside that I grow up a lot. I'm not saying that just because I want to praise...

I don't know what else I can say.

I'm proud of me, and I'm glad who I have become.

(In last months I understand that you don't need a lot of  world to express yourself. It's just like you tell "I love you", to someone, and you don't need any more words...)

Today I'm goning to see a movie, and celebrate my birthday. I hope I'll have a good time, and I'm gonna relate you how It was, maybe tonight, or tomorrow.

Like present from my parents I have got the watch I have been dreaming since the day I saw it in showcase,  some nail polish, and a blouse (I'm wearing it today).

From my aunt and uncle I have got a long naclace with a big ball,  made of fake black diamants. It looks great.

Because on 9th starts a new year for me, I decided that my blog needs a new look, so this is it. It like it, and I hope that you like this too.

I can't wait. Right now I need to pee, so I'm going to press Post, and ran to the bathroom.