Sunday, October 14, 2012

Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I I've got a war in my mind, so I just ride.




I've missed you guys! It's been 3 weeks since I haven't wrote anything in here. 'Tree Of Life' turned 2 years, and I still can't believe it.  ✖  School has been all over my mind lately. I can say that my form teacher is the best, and every Tuesday she's teaching us for free, playing guitar. 
Every day while getting ready for school I have this big hole in my stomach, and a feeling of strong dizziness. And when I'm on the bus I can't think of anything and I feel like I'm on a fucking big empty castle on the clouds, and after I'm starting to walk on the B. Street my mind starts to be active again. After I say 'hello' to the security men and walk the 4 stairs to get on the building, I feel alive although my hart is little like a dot. ✖  I have this horrible habit to compare my actual class mates to the old ones i had, and they're not even like them, 'cause they're awesome. I think I'm actually a little bit scared of what will happen to me

Mi-aţi lipsit iubiţilor! Au trecut 3 săptămâni de când nu am mai scris nimic aici. 'Tree Of Life' a împlinit 2 ani, iar mie nici nu îmi vine să cred. ✖  Şcoala a fost tot la ceea ce am putut să mă gândesc în ultimul timp. Pot să spun că diriginta mea este cea mai tare, iar în fiecare Marţi, ea ne învaţă să cântăm la chitara pe gratis. 
În fiecare zi când mă pregătesc pentru şcoală, am o gaură imensă în stomac, şi un sentiment puternic de ameţeală, iar când sunt în maşină am mintea complet goală şi nu mă pot gândi la nimic şi mă simt ca şi cum aş fi într-un castel iment pe un nor, iar după ce încep să merg pe Strada B. mintea mea începe în sfârşit să funcţioneze. După ce spun "bună ziua" paznicului şi urc cele 4 scări ca să intru în clădire, mă simt vie, chiar dacă inima mea este cât un purice.  ✖  Am acest oribil obicei să compar colegii mei noi de clasă cu cei vehi, iar ei nici măcar nu sunt ca vechii mei colegi, ei sunt super. De fapt, eu cred că sunt puţin speriată de ceea ce o să mi se întâmple. 


 


21 comments:

  1. Don't be scared, nothing good ever comes from that.

    /Avy

    http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com

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  2. so glad you're back :)
    Agreed as above, fear holds us back.

    +Not Just My Allegories+

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  3. nice post :) glad you're back

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  4. Loving that pink! Glad to see you back :)

    Alexandra xo

    tovogueorbust.com

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  5. you look excelent! lovelovelove it.

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  6. Wow! Your hair is amazing. :)

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  7. omg is that you in the photo!?
    You are SO gorgeous!! Your hair omg <333

    xx

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  8. Pink hair? Awsome! Love it! Following you now and would be more than happy if you took a look at my blog and tell me what you think! Maybe you can become a follower too? :)

    xoxo, Magdalena from Vega-fashion

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  9. Good luck with school and congrats on your blog being 2 years old =)

    Fashion and Cookies
    If you want we could follow each other on gfc, bloglovin and facebook !
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  10. Hello dear!
    Sooo cute post, like it! Happy bday to your blog :)
    I'm your 85 follower :) if you like my blog too I'm waiting for you!
    Xxx

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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  11. I LOVE your blog...Great photos!Really enjoying:) Please check mines If you want we can follow also with bloglovin, google+, twitter and facebook?
    Come back soon to visit my blog, I'll be waiting for you!!

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  12. Great post! I love it! ^^ You have a nice blog, mind to follow each other? :)

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  13. Pfff. Vezi tu, Lexie, n-ai de ce sa fii speriata.
    E foarte bine ca esti la o noua scoala. :*

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  14. Foarte dragut blog-ul . Felicitari pentru cei 2 ani ! Cred ca e o realizare pentru tine . Abia astept sa iti citesc fiecare post de acum si ma bucur ca ai colegi super si diriga super . Eu inca sunt a VIII-a si imi e foarte frica de viitorii mei colegi si profesori :-s

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  15. You're intelligent and sensitive, Lexxie. Learning must come easily to you.

    But your intelligence and sensitivity set you apart in your former school. Other students, far less intelligent than you, treated you unkindly. Their behavior left you scarred.

    Now you're attending a new school. The new students are more intelligent. Things are better. But every day when you travel to school, the old scars hurt, and you wonder whether your new classmates will become like your former classmates.

    They won't. They won't if they're intelligent and sensitive like you are.

    This year will be much better, I promise you.

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    1. God, I'm starting to wonder how on the Earth do you know so much about me...
      I always thought the words i write in here are total nonsenses. How did you figured out all this things? Are you some kind of psychologist?
      Thank you.I'm hoping this year is going to be fine.

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    2. No. I'm no psychologist.

      But I know a little about the history of your corner of the world. There probably aren't many people who are like you: intelligent and sensitive. That's why you've had such a hard time of it.


      Think about it. I'm sure you'll conclude that your country's future depends on you and on those who are like you.

      Don't ever change, Lexxie.

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