I was sitting on
my balcony, looking up at the sky, and hoping this time I'll get to see much
more stars than the last time. Fully disappointed, I took a breathe-out, and
told my mom "come here". I showed her the sky, and no stars, and she
told me "we're not living at the North Pole, to see the stars
clearly", and for the first time in this summer a strange feeling come in
my stomach... loneliness. ✖ I lost almost 10 kg, and my old
clothes are not good anymore, so yesterday i went to Takko, and bought a lot of
shirts, t-shirts, and 2 pairs of jeans. (they had this big 50% off sale at everything you bought) ✖
I'm dreaming at first day of school, hoping not to forget at what station i have to come down, and switch the lines, and make a lot of scenarios in my head,
with me smiling and meeting a lot of cool kids, but somehow the dark part of my
mind, has this big influence on me and gives me this fear of anything. ✖ I know someone up there loves me, and will hepl me to get through this year, and with a little bit of luck, I am not going to need any help on building up the person I've become. (much more confident, and strong)
Stăteam pe balcon, uitându-mă la cer, sperând că de data asta am să văd stelele mult mai clar decât data trecută. Complet dezamăgită, am expirat, şi i-am spus mamei mele, "vin-o aici". I-am arătat cerul, fără stele, iar ea mi-a spus "nu trăim la Polul Nord ca să vedem stelele atât de clar", şi pentru prima oară în vara asta un sentiment ciudat mi-a venit în stomac... singurătate. ✖ Aproape am slăbit 10 kg, iar hainele mele vechi nu îmi mai sunt bune, aşa că ieri am mers în Takko, şi am cumpărat o groază de cămăşi, bluze, şi 2 perechi de blugi. (aveau 50% discount la orice cumpărai) ✖ Visez la prima zi de şcoală, sperând să nu mă pierd pe la metrou şi să uit la ce staţie să mă dau jos, şi fac o groază de scenarii în mintea mea, cu mine zâmbind şi cunoscând mulţi adoleşcenţi drăguţi, dar cumva partea întunecată a minţii mele, are această imensă influenţă asupra mea, care mă face să îmi fie frică de orice se va întâmpla. ✖ Ştiu că cineva acolo sus mă iubeşte, şi mă va ajuta să trec cu bine peste acest an, iar cu puţin noroc, nu o să am nevoie deloc de ajutor să construiesc persoana care am devenit. (mult mai încrezătoare în propriile puteri şi puternică)
I miss the stars, the only sad thing about living in NYC.
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Thank you !
ReplyDeleteStars make me feel lonely too sometimes :c
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nu stiu de ce, dar mie stelele imi dau asa un sentiment de liniste,relaxare totala...nicidecum singuratate :)
ReplyDeleteun nou an de scoala te asteapta,noi peripetii,noi zambete,noi prieteni poate...fi puternica si bucura-te de toate,bune ori rele :)
I love the stars!! Thanks for the nice comments!
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Am o intrebare ciudata rau...
ReplyDeleteCum ai slabit 10 kg?:">
I read your words. And I looked at your picture. Now I have the same feeling you do, Lexxie: You're going to have a really good school year.
ReplyDeleteOh thank you. Hope you do the same!
DeleteThanks for your sweet comments! xx
LOve the pic of yours!
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I love this photo! :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck :) I love that photo of you xx
ReplyDeletelove this photo :D
ReplyDeleteI'll follow you! :>
genius:x
ReplyDeleteamazing photos on your blog!
ReplyDeletewould you like to follow each other at GFC and bloglovin? :)
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I love the picture. You look stunning and you have good reasons to be self-confident.
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Jenny
PS.: Great blog. Maybe we could follow each other?